Friday, May 4, 2012

end of an era

Today my dad will make his way to Athens in one of those beloved (and by that I mean obnoxious) Uhaul trucks and finish the process that my mom and I painstakingly began on Monday. 
moving out.
so bittersweet, is it not? 
I've been in the sweetest little house with Amberleia (roommate and friend of 8 wonderful years) for the past two years, and it's been so good to me. It's walking distance to campus (although some would argue with me on that), in the midst of a neighborhood whose mornings find women working in their yards and babies in their strollers, and--more importantly--a hop, skip and a jump away from Yoforia.
love you, Southview.
I also said my goodbyes to "the Hampton House" a few nights ago. It's the house I moved into when I first transferred from Presbyterian College to UGA 2 1/2 years ago. Through a friend of a friend of a friend...etc. I found out about a girl who was studying abroad and needed someone to sublet her room. 
Did I know her? you ask.
No, I didn't. 
Did I know her roommates that would still be there?
Quite seriously one of the scariest things I've ever done. 
But Jesus is so good, and those girls quickly became my best friends. It's still so crazy to me how one phone call to a random girl asking her if I could live in her bedroom for four months changed my college years forever. 
(so just a side reminder: if you're ever wondering what in the world God is doing with you, know that He has a purpose and a plan. and you might just end up with four new best friends because of it.)
I say all of that to acknowledge that I have come to the end of an era--one that has been full of, well, everything. Up's and down's, big changes, growth, classes that make you hate your life for a little bit, and lots of nights spent at Jittery Joe's (although that's not quite over for me yet). 
So I leave Southview and Hampton with little pieces of my heart and move on to the next era--one that is full of unknowns--in the hope that it will capture my heart in just the same way.

the end.
(before I get too sappy and reality sets in)

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

here and now

I come to you reporting from UGA's exam week, Spring 2012. The forecast is sunny with high levels of stress and procrastination. 
...and clearly exams are taking top priority in my life right now. 
Honesty, I can't remember ever being so ready to be done with a semester (I think I say this at the end of every semester), and so my mind has already fast forwarded to summer--which, by the way, I will be spending in Atlanta, praise to God above!
as I find myself being so removed from the present and ready for the next adventure, I find myself missing out on what God is doing here and now. This semester has been a long one--good in so many ways, hard in a lot of ways. I've spent a significant amount of time looking back on the past four months and wondering if I didn't make the wrong move at times, if I didn't mess up God's plan because of my impulsive, emotion-based decisions. 
The cool thing is, nothing--absolutely nothing--I do can ever mess up God's bigger plan. He is God, King of the Universe. He is Infinite and All-Powerful and All-Knowing. 
And I really think that I, a simple, sinful human, could mess Him up? 
Well, I have cut myself a hefty slice of humble pie and realized that the answer to that question is never
So I cannot dwell on the past, nor on the future--because that's God's plan, too--but I can live in the present, soaking up the last part of this chapter and preparing myself for the next. 
Hold true to the hope that God will work through even the messiest past, is right beside you--inside of you--in the present, and already knows your future, promising to love you the whole way.
Sweet relief.

"Yet I still dare to hope when I remember this:
The faithful love of the Lord never ends! 
His mercies never cease.
Great is His faithfulness;
His mercies begin afresh each morning."
Lamentations 3:21-23